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♡ ABOUT ME

hello, i am jisatsu, or ruru. i am 18, ♂ and asian, i live in australia. i like shopping, cute clothes, animals, sweets, videogames and drawing. i dont like loud sounds, spiders, sports or darkness. my hobbies are sewing, drawing, playing games and reading visual novels. i prefer not to go outside as i am often in ill health and am not very socially skilled. on the left are links to different pages of this site. some are completed and some are being updated.

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♡ blog entries

12/02/26
i havent gone out much, except for doing a mural in the city and getting lost at 4am. @_@. never doing it again.
i want to work on JNT but it seems so daunting to even start right now..

28/01/26
ive been going out too much. i feel ill and tired
all i want is some time to myself for a little

25/01/26
yay~ i got my laptop back !! i set up my SL avatar. i think i overspent (┬┬﹏┬┬) but now there's a diary page ♡
friend me if you play! my user is teachmehowtosaygoodbye !

24/01/26
AHHHHHH finally i can update ;-; i've had no laptop but im picking mine up tomorrow, yay~ i think i need antidepressants again, since i'm miserable and kept posting cringe blogs. sorry /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~
i'll be happy to finally be able to play secondlife properly!!! once i get set up i'll post my profile here (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.) ive seen some cute rori clothes on the marketplace!!!

15/01/26
i'm not making any progress on any of my creative projects. it's annoying. i feel like im close but i'll never be finished. i'm frustrated and dissatisfied with my own work. it's just not good enough.
i hope i'll stop stalling once i get home. i feel like im losing it...

14/01/26
i weighed myself and i lost nothing. i was right! everyone lied! i think this is going to affect my psyche.
i have lots of ideas for drawings but no motivation and i feel like im losing skill. is there a term for that? it's so frustrating.

10/01/26
finished my submission for an itch.io jam! ^_^ i wanted to do a VN like is customary, but i had no time since i had so much recovery to do. (＠_＠;)
next time i'll save myself more time~ i've been looking for a place to live when i get back. to be honest, i'd like to move out sooner than later, LOL. i can't stand living like normal anymore.

08/01/26
that sucked so bad omg they didnt put enough anaesthetic and i could feel everything. it bled for like ten hours and i felt like i was stabbed ;-;
thank GOD its over and i dont have any more wisdom teeth... i need to update my EGL pages now that i have free time. :v

06/01/26
second teeth pulling tomorrow. X_X omg i dont want to eat mush for the rest of my life...
hopefully i don't swallow so much blood this time. and also that the dentist doesnt have to cut my tongue off or something. @.@

02/01/26
everyone says i look like i've lost weight! yay! but i honestly can't tell. maybe it's a false compliment...
my family went out to the waterpark. i stayed inside and worked on sketches for sprites for JNT. i even launched the itch.io page~

01/01/26
happppppyyyyyyy neeeewwwwwww yyyeeeeeaaaaarrrrrrr !!!!!!!! ( *^-^)ρ(^0^* )
in the next year, i hope to improve my health, and work hard!! ^o^ i wish i was celebrating without pain, but at least i got to eat some steam fish.. :'3

30/12/25
one day after teeth pulling.. owwwwww... i barely slept last night and ive only eaten soft stuff for a day. my whole mouth tastes like blood but apparently thats normal ;-;
the meals ive eaten are small and simple. reminds me of when i barely ate, lol... im going to spend the day drawing to take my mind off the pain. (#｀-_ゝ-)

28/12/25
i made this blog! ive been meaning to make something like this for a while T-T it was pretty fun to code and i think it captures my mind well... ill try to post when i can. ヾ(＠⌒ー⌒＠)ノ
tomorrow i am getting my wisdom teeth pulled. it's scary. im in malaysia visiting family so at least it's cheaper here than at home... im not allowed to be under general anaesthetic so i have to be awake ~(>_<。) and i can only eat soft food for almost a month !!!! hopefully at least i lose some weight.