Kamikaze Girls
as all lolitas do, i really relate to this movie. being authentically weird all your life, and bonding with people who rejected normality later in their life- you're different kinds of weird, but isn't it nice to find solace?
momoko is apathetic- because she is 'weird'. because she doesn't fit in at school or at home and in her own town. she truly believes that nobody understands her- which, is true... but perhaps you don't need to be 100% understood to be loved. ichigo is actively rejecting society while momoko has always simply never fit in. its the meeting of those who pretend not to care in an effort to find themself and those who truly do not care. momoko will do anything for lolita and ichigo will do anything for akimi- both of them to a level that even they don't understand of each other. perhaps this one-track obsession is what unites them... a lack of care for the future, no plans for adulthood or jobs, simply a want of what is here and now.
this is a nonsensical and stupid review.i just really like this movie. i'm sure the 3 and a half people who read this will have no idea what i'm trying to say.
the visuals of this movie do not disappoint- the saturation, the random cutaways, the sudden shifts from fantasy to reality to flashbacks to cartoon- i'm someone who admittedly will rarely watch anything if it isn't animated (childish, i know...) and yet i was never bored or turned off by kamikaze girls. it's probably the exaggerated ...well, everything, as well as momoko's stellar coordinates and ichigo's animated gestures. every scene is brightly colored and the sequences where things go flying or it cuts to tv or animated townspeople are my absolute favourites. i think some of momoko's pieces have made their way into my own wishlist... aha..
momoko herself is probably the single most relatable character in anything to me. she lacks an interest in relationships, her family, anything outside of lolita and living like a princess is boring to her. i think she's... dabsolutely at least a little autistic, even if not intended that way. my life is like hers, i suppose... growing up in a family that definately never understood me, in turn being an outsider to neighbours, classmates... i didn't consider myself hard to befriend, simply because i had never tried to befriend anyone. even now, as an adult, there's not many people close to me, and i don't approach people on my own. i suppose a lack of trying eliminates the possibility of rejection?
ichigo and momoko have the special kind of relationship that i feel will never come by a person more than once or twice in a lifetime. more than a friend and more than love itself- you don't have to be similar to connect so deeply with someone. friendship is not enough to describe that, yet you can't call that person merely a lover. as corny as this term is, i feel the english word is closest to soulmate. i'm eternally grateful to have found two people who fulfill that role in my own life. i hope that everyone can find happiness like that.
despite my rambling, i suppose there's just one thing i really want to say about my favourite movie. it's a bit dumb-sounding and vague, sorry.
love is all around and you will find it.
it doesn't have to be a lover, a sibling, a partner- but there is someone in the world who loves you, and when you find them, everything you've endured will be worth it. it's okay to be apathetic. to reject those around you who make no effort to understand you. but i don't think anyone should give up hope that someday, somebody will.
